How do I Begin...

Hey all...my name is Ann. I set up this page months ago. I thought that some amazing thought or revelation would come to me...something very important to say.  I have a good story, and have tried to figure out how to tell it.

I have decided to tell it as it comes, and "flash back" as needed.

I have lived a very amazing, unsual, painful, successful, confusing life. Not so different than most, but maybe a bit.

I have been a student, wife (twice...and still am), a mother, a manager of a major chain, a stripper, a well known model, a bartender, a top sales person, a drunk, and a student looking for a job AGAIN.

I know it all sounds too crazy...but all true.

At this point I am just looking for "normal." That is so odd to me because for most of my life I was trying to get out of "normal. I grew up in a town of norther WI...not quite normal, but just wanted to get out.  I was the youngest of 4. Good parents, good up bringing, but not to be with out issues(to be discussed at a later date)

Went to college, with many scholoraships, got engauged, left the private school I loved b/c I didn't want to be 100k in debdt. I then transfered to UW-Madison. Broke up with fiance(more to that story later) Met my first husband, who was in pharmacy school. I worked with him at Walgreens(the company I had worked with since I was 15, back in Superior, WI...nice transfer process)

Got pregnant, got married...(much more to add...trying to be brief on the background at the moment)

Was cheated on, stayed married 8 more years...(mom and dad sd it was for life)...really glad I did not listen

During my marriage...which was probably way too soon for both of us...I rebelled after my husband chaeted on me and became a stripper(more on that later too...there may be a clip on Richard Bey to prove that)

After my ex-husband told me I was ugly, not attractive, and he could not stand me....and after I had started stripping. I chose to go to modeling agencies in Milwaukee, and Chicago.

They loved me! I got hired right and left, I soon found myself all over the globe.

Making money. I didn't care that he was cheating. At one point he forbid me to go abroad. I left.

At some point around year 6 or 7 in marriage I introduced extasy. He loved it. It became a problem, he LOVED it I did for a while but hated the way I felt after. I feel like it was the only way we could take each other. BAD!!!!

I feel like I will stop hear for now. I think that is a good beginning.

The reason I wanted to even begin to write today is my dogs. I have 3. It was never my intention to have three. I had Ginger with my ex husband, and Oscar a blue and gold macwac. When I lived in NYC I did not have them. When I decided to move back to WI with my current (amazing) hubbby...6 blockls away from my ex husband...we got them back...so fast that "SHE " did not want them. Oh my we had no furniture in the house, and she was moving them in....HONESTLY she tried to sell the bird whom I loved(and so did my ex husband) back to me. More on that later.Oh sorry got lost for a moment. Ok so Ging took a turn for the worst a couple of years ago...she will  be 18 this year. My NEW(but not new anymore) husband and I knew that we could not be without a dog, we went to shelters, and had a friend of a friend, tell us about a golden retreiver. His name is Titan....not his given name(and he really was not a rescue....his "indian" parents had too much going on, and just had no time for him, they had to go back to india to deal with family issues. They call him "Tuffy" I could not call him that. I forgot to mention they own the local gas station, and "Tuffy" see's them when I go there. It just so happens we HATED the name "Tuffy" and changed it to TITAN(still a t- and still 2 sylables) A much worse story about "Tuffy name later...don't worry he is still here and alive"


Oh so let me go back a bit, so now ya know about Titan(Tuffy).....it does not end there.