Ug...the job search continues. I must say that I am glad to be home to make dinner. I am just waiting for the cleaning instinct to kick in. Don't get me wrong MOST of my house is pretty much immaculate, except the master bathroom (http://trying2getit.blogspot.com/2010/09/oh-master-bathroom.html), the upstairs hallway floor that we tore the carpet off of in hopes of replacing it with wood. Sadly we have college to help pay for, and, and , and. Hence no floors yet.
I wonder what is the best thing for today? What is the best use of my time? I had been working so much that I haven't done the closet cleaning. I have been only maintaining the house..barely. Sometimes I wonder what is my purpose in life? Why is life so frustrating at sometimes? Sometimes I get pretty down.
Now here is what is cool. My DH, and I have been able to make a major impact on a child (the 21 year old we "adopted"). He is excelling. Don't get me wrong, he has rules...many rules. Apply for jobs every day, get a haircut, and household chores.
He did all of that, and I am very proud of him for it. Within 3 weeks he had a full time job...A job that was a mile away from DH, so they can commute together. He got his job about the same day I lost mine.
Even in my stress of not having a job,I am proud, and happy to have a positive influence on a life as we have. Something so simple as "family dinner" was a foreign concept to him. I think family dinner is SOOOOO important.
So what is the plan? Sadly, I am so don't deal with surrender so well. I try. I know, I suck at it. I don't know the plan. I do know that I will do what ever I can to help the people that need help.
Sometimes I wonder when my help will come.
I wonder what is the best thing for today? What is the best use of my time? I had been working so much that I haven't done the closet cleaning. I have been only maintaining the house..barely. Sometimes I wonder what is my purpose in life? Why is life so frustrating at sometimes? Sometimes I get pretty down.
Now here is what is cool. My DH, and I have been able to make a major impact on a child (the 21 year old we "adopted"). He is excelling. Don't get me wrong, he has rules...many rules. Apply for jobs every day, get a haircut, and household chores.
He did all of that, and I am very proud of him for it. Within 3 weeks he had a full time job...A job that was a mile away from DH, so they can commute together. He got his job about the same day I lost mine.
Even in my stress of not having a job,I am proud, and happy to have a positive influence on a life as we have. Something so simple as "family dinner" was a foreign concept to him. I think family dinner is SOOOOO important.
So what is the plan? Sadly, I am so don't deal with surrender so well. I try. I know, I suck at it. I don't know the plan. I do know that I will do what ever I can to help the people that need help.
Sometimes I wonder when my help will come.
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