The following are several FB messages from my DD. I just want to say before I get into the body of this message, that technology has REALLY changed the parenting world..for that matter any relationship. It is all just out there.
Although my blog is publicly viewed, and I post it on FB, I do talk about VERY personal things. Why do I do that?, you ask? I do it for a number of reasons. I do it to get the thoughts out of my brain, that would keep me up at night. I do it, because I found out that I can ACTUALLY help others with my truth. I do it to help heal myself.
All of that being said, I know I have said things that may hurt, or bother others. I know my topics are not easy. I know what I say may cause feelings. I know some of those feelings might not be good ones.
I am sorry if I hurt any one's feelings. I will say this one more time..."It is not my intention to harm, or hurt anyone, but to help myself.
A couple of days ago I wrote this entry:
http://trying2getit.blogspot.com/2011/04/to-my-angel-girlplease-listen.html?zx=de437b6a20552d4c
The flowing was my DD's response.
Dear Mother~
Maybe if you had a clue you would get why I'm pissed. The problem is that you don't know me yes I won't let you know me but guess what I get to decide who I want in my life and to understand me and you have not gained that trust back yet. I'm mad:
1)I'm not mad that you invited Emily or Tyler over( I do think it was weird) ...I am mad that you failed to tell me.
2)I'm pissed Shane is living in our house and you are letting his gf and her cats move in with us.
3)I am still bitter that half my life you were gone or drunk.
4)I am BUSY! I have work school babysitting. Exams are almost here and my own shit to deal with so constantly trying to be your best friend is not my priority
5)My life and my business should not be posted on your fucking blog it pissed your family off and it pisses me off
6)I was in Chicago then trying to catch up on all my school work and since policies are changing at work I have to go in extra and sit through meetings so yea this past week and a half I haven't been responsive to anyone
7...) When you post shit about me or talk about me it is going to just piss me off and not make me want to be any part of your life (not that that should matter since you have created a whole replacement family)
8)You make things awkward when we do go out and talk and turn our conversations very uncomfertable I don't want to spend hours with someone I can't easily converse with
9)I love you and you are more than money to me but I don't need this shit and if you wanna push me like that I will move my stuff out of your house.
Love,
XXXXXX
(p.s I happen to like Rob a lot and think that he is good for us so don't question me on that maybe get the whole story before you judge me)
NOW! I am not upset or angry with her. I so am not. She feels what she feels, and it is not my place to tell ANYONE how they feel.
So here is the upside. My DD called me last night. WE had a conversation about her frustrations. We talked. For once we talked. I felt SO grateful for that.
My DD had mentioned what she had posted on FB. I told her I had not seen it...and I had not. Frankly, I didn't care. She filled me in a bit. I told her it was fine. I have read it. Some of it hurts. DD is mostly justified.
I know that DD did not like me talking about her in my blog. I understand it. I am not sorry for that. Why? You ask? I will tell you why, because it started a discourse between the two of us. That is a GOOD thing.
I will continue to work on my Angel Girl's relationship, and mine. It may never be perfect. I am trying my hardest to work toward perfection.
Although my blog is publicly viewed, and I post it on FB, I do talk about VERY personal things. Why do I do that?, you ask? I do it for a number of reasons. I do it to get the thoughts out of my brain, that would keep me up at night. I do it, because I found out that I can ACTUALLY help others with my truth. I do it to help heal myself.
All of that being said, I know I have said things that may hurt, or bother others. I know my topics are not easy. I know what I say may cause feelings. I know some of those feelings might not be good ones.
I am sorry if I hurt any one's feelings. I will say this one more time..."It is not my intention to harm, or hurt anyone, but to help myself.
A couple of days ago I wrote this entry:
http://trying2getit.blogspot.com/2011/04/to-my-angel-girlplease-listen.html?zx=de437b6a20552d4c
The flowing was my DD's response.
Dear Mother~
Maybe if you had a clue you would get why I'm pissed. The problem is that you don't know me yes I won't let you know me but guess what I get to decide who I want in my life and to understand me and you have not gained that trust back yet. I'm mad:
1)I'm not mad that you invited Emily or Tyler over( I do think it was weird) ...I am mad that you failed to tell me.
2)I'm pissed Shane is living in our house and you are letting his gf and her cats move in with us.
3)I am still bitter that half my life you were gone or drunk.
4)I am BUSY! I have work school babysitting. Exams are almost here and my own shit to deal with so constantly trying to be your best friend is not my priority
5)My life and my business should not be posted on your fucking blog it pissed your family off and it pisses me off
6)I was in Chicago then trying to catch up on all my school work and since policies are changing at work I have to go in extra and sit through meetings so yea this past week and a half I haven't been responsive to anyone
7...) When you post shit about me or talk about me it is going to just piss me off and not make me want to be any part of your life (not that that should matter since you have created a whole replacement family)
8)You make things awkward when we do go out and talk and turn our conversations very uncomfertable I don't want to spend hours with someone I can't easily converse with
9)I love you and you are more than money to me but I don't need this shit and if you wanna push me like that I will move my stuff out of your house.
Love,
XXXXXX
(p.s I happen to like Rob a lot and think that he is good for us so don't question me on that maybe get the whole story before you judge me)
NOW! I am not upset or angry with her. I so am not. She feels what she feels, and it is not my place to tell ANYONE how they feel.
So here is the upside. My DD called me last night. WE had a conversation about her frustrations. We talked. For once we talked. I felt SO grateful for that.
My DD had mentioned what she had posted on FB. I told her I had not seen it...and I had not. Frankly, I didn't care. She filled me in a bit. I told her it was fine. I have read it. Some of it hurts. DD is mostly justified.
I know that DD did not like me talking about her in my blog. I understand it. I am not sorry for that. Why? You ask? I will tell you why, because it started a discourse between the two of us. That is a GOOD thing.
I will continue to work on my Angel Girl's relationship, and mine. It may never be perfect. I am trying my hardest to work toward perfection.
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