Shame, and Guilt!!!

Shame, and guilt are good, and worthy emotions. Their intent is clear. It is a moment in life when ya wish you could take it all back. Unfortunately, you cannot.

Although, shame, and guilt, are good and worthy emotions...we must be careful not to stay with them for too long. They're very important emotions/feelings..but they are purpose is to be short lived. Shame, and guilt  are learning emotions. We are not meant to park ourselves there.

I have had many lessons in shame, and guilt. I have learned much.

Man, this is hard to say, but I REALLY messed up a couple of days ago. I drank. I regret every moment. I involved my son (directly), and I felt the need to  come clean to my DH, and DD.

I don't know, I have no good reason. I made a bad choice, in one moment. How can I be so weak?  My hubby reminded me that it is a disease. It is. It is just such a confusing one. I work hard to overcome it. Just earlier that day I had dropped off flyer's at my club for a T-day open house.

My belief in this blog is that if I can't be completely honest...what is the point. Some days complete honesty really sucks.

I corrected my self immediately. I had to speak to both of my children, and husband, and come clean. I feel a bit better.

I so did not want  to blog about this...I would really rather hide it. I know that is the wrong choice. As I have said before secrets kill.  I gotta be honest, being honest really sucks some times....sorry mom, I said suck.

I am so not perfect. In fact,I am  incredibly flawed. I can only offer honesty, my life experience, and my faith.