Me Time...NOT!

It was a very difficult time of trying to hang on, yet try to let go of my DS. I want him to have a great time hanging with friends, I really do. I do so worry about him being predisposed to addict behavior.  I've worried since the time he could not put a video game down. I worried more when he stole smokes from me. I worry about worse. I worry about drinking, and drugging. 

SO I was probably, the WAY overprotective mom last night. He called, and checked in...sd, "He was hanging w/friends after school." I of course, asked who, where, when, and what.   He happened to stop by home...I was in the midst of canning more stuff. He sd he just came to get something. I went out side to "visit" interrogate his friends; Several boys, and 1 girl. I asked who the driver was...someone I had never met. I also noticed that one of his friends that I really don't care for was there. I told him I was not really ok with the situation. I really think that kid is bad news.

I let him go with the condition he had to check in every couple hours. They were going to a bonfire, at one of the kid's houses. I called him a couple of hours later..they were still out driving. I really wanted to go pick him up...in fact I, threatened I would. I let him stay. I did however demand the address...and that a parent would be there. I KNOW when I was his age I did a bunch of stupid things. I am not naive either...I do expect my kids to experiment with alcohol, and drugs. I do also believe it is MY JOB TO KEEP THEM ALIVE!

Ug I don't know. He is on the way to getting his driver's license. Yet he has no job. I know for a fact that at his dad's house he will not be able to get a license until he can cover his insurance. YET he seems to have no real desire for a job....Well maybe kind of, but not really. Yes, we do live in a small town. BUT when we had a bit of a heart to heart today...I  suggested, he walk up, and down the main street...which is called MAIN St...yes small town...and just go business to business...he said, "No...he was tired, his calves hurt from  karate, he needed some "chill" time." Funny thing was, he was fine to hang with friends last night. His face had scratches, I asked, "what happened to your face?" He Said, " it was basketball." So again not in so much pain, or too tired to play ball.

ANYWAY, I had been cleaning the house...I needed some "ME TIME." We needed a grocery store run...I usually hate going to the grocery, but thought for some reason it could be relaxing. It was double coupon day which is important.  I went to the garage to get into the car, and two of the dogs escaped. DH said," take them with you." I agreeed.  So I go to the local Pick-n-Save....Where my DD works, and was working at the time. I had just grabbed my cart and I heard a car alarm going off. Ug, sure enough it was mine. I turned it off. I had more shopping than just a few things. I've got the coupon binder open on the top of the cart where a child would sit..I am beginning to strole up and down the isles...I am pondering what steak to get because, DH said he wanted steaks tonight...no good deals on them. Over the loud speaker of the grocery, "The owner of a silver Scion...your alarm is going off." "Oh shit, that is me." I park my cart in the middle of the meat isle, and go turn  off the  car alarm alarm. I go back and finish my shopping...thank GOD I did not see DD. I always seem to have the most stupid moments at the store where she works.

There was the dill drama of Aug 2010... I was trying to get dill out of the bucket it was in and...It was all falling all over...something out of an, "I love Lucy" episode. People were staring, veering carts away, I left a big dill mess on the floor, and when I got to the counter I sd "I'm so n so's mom....The guy said, "I KNOW" I responded, "Please don't tell her about the dill mess."

So now I had finished the shopping, and was loading the car. People that are also on the way out are telling me, "Your  alarm was going off." I sd, "I know." So as I  turn to put the cart in the cart corral...the puppy...a very strong willed girl, makes a break for it.  I chase her around the grocery parking lot, finally tackle her...pick her up shove her back in the car..and just sigh. Another woman passing by did complement me on the take down.

I fished out the Gatorade from the bag, lit up a Marlboro Light 100, sat for a minuet or so, and realized no "ME TIME" today.