Ok well, yes I cheated a bit, I had to condense my last few days of thoughts into today.
I had to tell those stories to tell THIS one. Remember from the beginning, I said I would talk about being a drunk, my kids, my relationships, AND my journey with Christ!.
OK so now is some, "Christ" talk! Ok so common' ya all that are freaked out....I won't burn your eyes out...I promise! Those that are with me, Thank YOU.!
Look it is like this, I have been through the mill. I have been VERY rich, and VERY poor. I have been so VERY lost...just wondering why I am here...why do I exist (especially when my life has been so fucked up?)
I so don't have the answers to all of this, but I KNOW that I just know that EVERYTHING will be ok...don't know why, or how. To be honest, I never have known how it works. I so know that when I was single after 9/11....I had no income, I had an agency that left me high n dry to the tune of 50k, I had no clue how I would manage. Some how it just did....I am quite sure at this point it was not me...it was faith. To be honest there was no possible way it should have worked EVER...but it ALWAYS did. At that time, I believed....but not really.
Oh I know some of u guys think I'm, "all( khumbaya()sp?)...maybe I am. I will never preach...All I will say that Christ has helped me. Oh and I have a great sex life....well I did still say I would curse, and talk about sex.
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